I enjoy a good conversation with someone who does not affirm the Christian religion. Many of my friends and family are atheist or agnostics. On the other hand, I have noticed that I make for a terrible apologist! I have participated in several conversations throughout the blogosphere over the last couple of weeks that have left me mentally exhausted (e.g. see here, here, and here). There are some people who can go back and forth with a skeptic. I am not one of those people!

I think everyone should be a Christian but I am not very good at arguing for this end. I think the Genesis narrative is vague enough for one to affirm current scientific findings, especially in regards to evolution, but I cannot prove this to be true or false. I think the gospel is very, very believable, but I do not have enough training in philosophy to go toe to toe for very long in arguments over epistemology. I think that experiencing the Holy Spirit can be foundational to a confession of faith. I cannot prove that experiencing the Holy Spirit is any better than other paranormal religious experiences. I think the Scriptures are the Word of God inspired by the Holy Spirit. We could spend all day arguing but I probably cannot prove to you that the Qur’an is inferior.

Is this OK? I know we are told to “make a defense to anyone who ask you for a reason for the hope that is in you” (1 Peter 3.15) but I am more than aware that my reasons often prove unsatisfying to most skeptics. I can spend all day studying Christian theology and biblical exegesis, but I cannot prove to you that you should think any more of these subjects than you do of reading Kant or Foucault.

If I had more time I would try to study these subjects more in depth, but I have this sneaking suspicion that it wouldn’t change much. In the end I would still be a Christian and in the end I would still be able to go so far with my argument before I had to agree to disagree. Is my attitude about this all wrong? Should I care about being able to defend my faith with better arguments in the fields of philosophy, history, and science?